Friend, can I be honest? My wilderness season has been a mess. Not a little messy but a big, huge pile of mess. I’ve made sooooo many mistakes and believed so many of the enemies lies. One lie that I believed was that I was alone. Sometimes when you’re in this season (like you and me), you feel like no one can see you. They can PHYSICALLY see you, but they cannot see your pain. They can’t FEEL your pain and most times, you can’t even describe it. It’s personal, painful but also very isolating, which can be a toxic combination. Mix in the fact that you’re an emotional wreck and your life is falling apart, and you’ve got a great recipe for disaster!
I want to tell you something though. You’re NOT alone and neither am I. Regardless of what the enemy tries to tell you, you are NOT alone. Regardless of how you ended up in this season, you are NOT alone. Regardless of what it looks like, you’re NOT alone. The enemy does some of his BEST work in this season and I want…no…NEED you to be aware of that. You’re here because this is where God wants you right now. Maybe you’re here to learn, heal or even prepare for your next season. I heard a pastor say once that sometimes when God separates you, it’s because He wants to elevate you! He wants you to Himself because He wants your undivided attention. What I’m saying is, you’re not here by accident because you’re right where God wants you to be.
When I first came into my wilderness season, I had just been thrown out of my old house (it was sold by the landlord), moved to a new state away from friends and no home church. I was a WRECK. I couldn’t eat, work, or take care of my puppy. I rarely left the house because I lost all motivation and during this, I also lost two jobs and couldn’t pay my rent. When I tried to tell people about it, they thought I was whining or just dealing with the normal difficulties of Christianity. Everyone reading this knows that this season is…. different. It’s not like the others and it certainly isn’t a “pray it away” type of situation. You are being pressed from all sides and there’s absolutely nothing you can do but pray. It’s easy to feel hopeless and faithless because you often feel like no one can validate your experience. I honestly thought I was going crazy most days. It wasn’t until year TWO that I realized that this is something that A LOT of people STILL go through. Some go through it and choose not to share their testimony; some get here and think that they’re meant to stay, and some go through and don’t even have a clue that they’re here or what they’re here for!
I also want to mention that you may need to take a step back to see if this is the season of life you’re truly in. There are plenty of articles out there that will tell you what a wilderness season actually is and how to tell if you’re in one. I want to remind you, though, that if you do find yourself here, you are not alone. I’m still here in this season, too. There are still some days where I cry all day. Days where I stare into my Bible and days where I feel like I am too weak to read it at all. Despite all of that, I must remember that our God is still with us, and He hears us every time we cry out. I want you to remember that, too. There’s isn’t a single tear that falls from your eye that He does not see. I know that a perfect stranger telling you this may not help but these scriptures might paint a better picture for you:
Psalms 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” NASB2020
Psalms 34:18 “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” NASB2020
Reminders:
Romans 8:28: “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” NASB
Romans 8:18: “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” NASB
Friend, He hears you. He sees you. Maybe you’re like me and you drifted away from God because you felt like it was pointless to keep crying out when nothing has changed. Maybe you feel like it’s pointless to keep living when no one can hear you. Maybe you’re in a situation that you have no idea how you are going to get out of, and you just want God to FIX it. Please just KEEP PRAYING. I know that’s hard to hear and hard to read. Listen, it’s even hard to TYPE so I get it. I’m going through this too but after spending two years running from God and allowing the enemy to convince me that He doesn’t care about me, I must accept the fact that I was wrong, the enemy was wrong and so are you. He is here. He cares and He wants you to get out of this season. I promise. I know I sound like a broken record but as many times as the enemy has repeatedly lied to you is as many times as I want to tell you the truth. God. Is. Here.
We’re going through this together, friend, and I want us to remember that we have the victory already! God does not want you to stay here forever so let us lean into Him and allow Him to order our steps so that we can leave this season on time and ready to walk right into our harvest!
Until next time. ♥